OH geez

I'm usually a happy person. I do suffer from Anxiety and depression but I take pills to help me. As I'm sitting at work tonight, out the blue I got hit with a huge wave of depression and loneliness. I don't know where it came from and I can't believe how vulnerable I am. Out of no where I wrote myself a letter... I look back and read it and think, "Wow, you are not happy with yourself."

Here's what I wrote:

"Natasha is a jealous freak who needs to be locked away and never be let out in public ever again. She will live her life alone and depressed. She will never get married and have kids. You should quit caring for yourself and let yourself go because you won't impress anyone anyways. Compared to other girls, you are nothing. Get used to being alone and unloved by those you seek love from. You are worthless and pathetic. You don't deserve happiness. Wallow in self pity you stupid fat cow.  
Love, Natasha"

I'm gonna say I'm a little down in the dumps.