This day has been kinda relaxed and fun. I got to spend time with so many friends which was very good. AND then I let that evil Tasha in and negative thoughts are all I can hear. I feel so good about myself one minute and then the next I just can't seem to figure out why?

*Why can't I buckle down and lose more weight?
*Why do I struggle so much with school when I want to be an English teacher?
*Why am I single?

I could go on and on and complain on why my life isn't the way I want it to be.

And then I realized, my life isn't going to change by complaining. As long as I keep on praying and trying my hardest to be happy and find the good in all things, then hopefully those *why's* will become *why not*.

Of course those negative thoughts will linger inside my head and until I make them change, then they will stay there. But the amazing thing about those why's, is that they are so easily changed.


Have a great weekend :)

Bunco

Yes, bunco. Tonight my aunt invited me to be a substitute for one of the ladies who missed on their group bunco. I have always wondered on what bunco was and how it was played. The first round was kinda difficult and that was just because I was getting used to it. By the end of the night I was a pro, well not really... I got the prize of lowest score haha. But it was still so much fun.

I'm blogging about this because I would LOVE to get a group of 11 ladies together to have a monthly bunco night. If you are interested in joining leave me a comment and I will let you know what goes down. I think it would be so much fun and just have a night to relax and hang out with some friends.

Life recently

I realized that I haven't blogged about my pathetic life recently. So I decided that I would keep my followers updated.

My amazing and wonderful Aunt Colleen past away after 21 years of fighting 5 different cancers. She was always an inspiration to me and will continue to inspire me. I will miss her but I know that I will be with her again one day.

I decided to take some summer classes to get closer to my associates degree and I FINALLY passed math. Woohoo. That was my third freaking time taking that class. I am an English Education major and have never been good at math. So I have just one more math and one more science to take and I will have my first degree. Then I can focus on my future of being a teacher.

I'm loving loving loving my new singles ward and the great new people that I have met and getting closer to. Church is so much more fun and I feel like I get so much more out of it when I am surrounded by amazing people.

I just got back yesterday from a weekend vacation to St. George, UT. It was a much needed get away after an intense beginning of the year with school. I loved being out under the hot sun surrounded by my friends and mom. It was a good mini vacation. Hopefully in either August or September I will be going on another vacation to California.

The 4th of July is next week and I'm so excited. I love being with friends and family celebrating and watching fireworks. It's such a fun time. I love it!!!

I miss you Aunt Colleen

This week we lost an amazing woman who fought 21 years battling 5 different cancers. I am so grateful for the last words we spoke to each other were "I love you" as I was leaving her house. On Sunday we celebrated my Nana's 98th birthday over at my Aunt Colleens and everyone was able to go into her room and give her a kiss; she was lucid but still alive.  Wednesday night I get a call from my mom telling me that Aunt Colleen had died.  For the first half hour it didn't seem real but once we got to the house and I saw her pale body, I knew she was gone. There was this peaceful look on her face, and I knew at that moment she was pain free and was with my grandpas in heaven. I will miss her there is no doubt about that, but I am so grateful for eternal families because I know one day I will be able to see her again.

I miss you Aunt Colleen and I love you!