OH geez

I'm usually a happy person. I do suffer from Anxiety and depression but I take pills to help me. As I'm sitting at work tonight, out the blue I got hit with a huge wave of depression and loneliness. I don't know where it came from and I can't believe how vulnerable I am. Out of no where I wrote myself a letter... I look back and read it and think, "Wow, you are not happy with yourself."

Here's what I wrote:

"Natasha is a jealous freak who needs to be locked away and never be let out in public ever again. She will live her life alone and depressed. She will never get married and have kids. You should quit caring for yourself and let yourself go because you won't impress anyone anyways. Compared to other girls, you are nothing. Get used to being alone and unloved by those you seek love from. You are worthless and pathetic. You don't deserve happiness. Wallow in self pity you stupid fat cow.  
Love, Natasha"

I'm gonna say I'm a little down in the dumps.

I love

Wipes!!!


You know Amy Winehouse kept saying no no no to rehab, she should have said yes.

You will be missed Teri!

Teri Elizabeth Jackson was full of life and love! I had many classes with her in high school. She was short haired, freckled, and vibrantly loud haha. She was always the one in the back of the class cracking jokes. I never saw her frown, there was always a smile on her face.

Friday afternoon she was swimming in the Colorado River and the current picked up and she started yelling for help, but her friends weren't able to grab her. She started trailing down the river. Search and rescue pronounced her dead today saying that she drowned on Friday. She will be very missed and remembered.

WE LOVE YOU TERI! 

Camp Vention!

So every summer there is a Camp Vention with Narcotics Anonymous which my mom is involved with and we have gone every single year for the past 7 or so years. Here are some of the pictures from this weekend with some of the most amazing people I have ever met! Such a great weekend!

Me and my girls, Morisity and Trinity

Dancing the night away

A group of people from camping with Sunglasses

The most amazing people in my life!

Lindsy and my mom

This man has lived! He has gone through so much and I just admire him.

Me and Kim dancing by the fire!

Isn't it the future already? Where are the flying cars and teleports?

Come on now, it's 2011, shouldn't we be teleporting now instead spending SOOOO much money on the up keep of cars? I'm so irritated with my car right now. I'm just ready to sell it and get a different one. As much as I love my car, I can't stand how many problems I've had with it that cost an arm and a leg. That's it, I'm going to invent a teleport.

Temples

So tonight at Institute we talked about temples some and I honestly just LOVE every single temple there is. They are so beautiful and magnificent. I can't wait til the day comes that I'm to be sealed for eternity to my companion and family.
Here are some of my favorite temples

Draper Temple

Hawaii Temple

London Temple 

Manti Temple

Salt Lake Temple

San Diego Temple, my friend Jentrie took this beautiful picture and edited it.

Washington DC Temple