Oh crap!

I am horrible at blogging. Life has been so crazy these past few months. Most recently I've been helping my cousin/best friend/roommate out after a sea doo accident at Bear Lake 2 weeks ago. What happened was the guys who we rented the sea doos from said for the person behind the driver to hold on to the drivers life jacket. The waves were pretty choppy because wind was picking up, but that didn't stop us from going fast and having the best day of our lives. Well the life jacket had had enough and when we hit a certain wave my life jacket snapped and my cousin fell off backwards. Now I don't think many people know this but the force of the jet stream coming out of the back of the sea doo is very powerful. My cousin got blasted so hard from the jet stream it tore through her skin and intestine. She has an infection from the lake water, had to go through emergency surgery, and was in the hospital for 6 days. She is still in much pain and can't really get back on her feet just yet, hence why I am helping her out. The moral of the story is be careful if you ever get on a sea doo. Luckily the season is ending ha.

Other than that incident, life has been pretty good. My puppy Breezy Mae is getting so big. She's now 15 weeks old and getting bigger everyday haha. I finally feel like I'm going to be heading in the right direction of my life and that is a really good feeling. Life will always be hard and have it's challenges but at least for now I feel like I have control over my life and I haven't felt that way in a very long time.

I really need to start making some changes in my life though and become more healthy.  I know I talk about this all the time and how this time will be different and how tomorrow I will do something different. BUT this time is different haha. Ever since the accident with my cousin which has been very difficult for me, I finally feel like I'm going in the right direction of my life. With that being said I have done better on my eating habits. Now my next challenge is to start working. Ah wish me luck.

Until next time.
Xoxo, Tasha

Oh hi there...

It's been forever since I have blogged last. I have gone through some trials these past few months and I feel like tonight I have found my way out of this labyrinth and found my way to the Goblin City. I know that was a Labyrinth joke... forgive me it's late. <br />
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I am taking summer classes. My last two classes I need for my Associates. After I get that I will be able to go 100% focused on finishing my major: English Education. I am going to finish strong this semester and I am going to rock! I need to keep telling myself that and hopefully I will start to believe it. <br />
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Since my breakup with he who shall not be named, I have gained a ton of weight. Stress, anger, sadness, you name it I will blame my weight gain on it. But tonight I had a nervous break down and got real with myself. If I keep numbing my body and ignoring the pain, I will never recover. I'm not myself right now and I feel like a stranger in my own body. I'm starting today, right now changing my life. The only way I can hold myself accountable for that is to make it public. Let everyone else know what I am doing so I can't just quietly quit. You guys have to keep me strong. <br />
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I am challenging myself to blog my way through my life style change. It's a challenge I am actually going to follow through with. So bear with me as I complain and rejoice my little anxiety self for everything pound I gain/shed because this is going to be a roller coaster of a change and I need you here with me to keep me going. <br />
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Before I go to bed I will finish this "thankful goodnight chart." Here we go.

Oh hi!

I have been MIA for a long time now. I have been working, trying to find myself, getting ready for school in a few months and just trying to have fun. Life is beautiful in case you were wondering. In less than a month I turn 21. Woohoo. I sure have missed blogging. Here are some photos from 2012 so far... life w/0 deuche bag.

Me, Troy, and Anthony at Color Festival

St. George with my ladies!

Before the Color festivities

After the festivities

My mom is so beautiful!

Me and Morisity love our Niners

Love me some Crew

My boy Anthony!

Well

Let's just say I suck at blogging. Life has gotten extremely hard this past month and I've let myself get weak. I need to stand strong and become a better person, but it's one thing to say it, and another to actually do it. I'm hoping to go to some support groups and going back to therapy. We shall see where this takes me.

new me

life is hard .... it's as simple as that.
it's been the worst week of my life and i finally feel like i'm on top.
i went and got my hair cut yesterday, it's the first step in changing myself.

Cut it all off

Recently

I went back to school! I am only taking two classes but those are the last two classes I need for my Associates degree. Woohoo. I got a new phone :) thank goodness because I was really getting sick and tired of my iPhone. I ended up going back to T-Mobile and getting the new Galaxy S II. I am very satisfied with my purchase.

Other than school and spending lots of money, I've just been working, school, and hanging with friends and my lover boy!
Such an exciting life I have. :)

I love my new scarf I just got a few days ago.!

I like mustaches...

Me and my lover boy on our way to dinner! I love him

First goal of the year...

Oh I am a failure at life. Okay maybe not.. I may be just a little dramatic at times. But I was suppose to start my goal today on not drinking soda, and what do I do? I get a large Dr. Pepper, my weakness.

But tomorrow is a new day and I will NOT have a soda. More water, more water, more water. That is what I have to keep telling myself. In my lifetime goal of wanting to have and maintain a healthy lifestyle, I need to start drinking less soda and much more water. I can do this.!

I hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday night.

peace
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blessings 

2012... what will you bring me?

I welcomed 2012 with some of the most amazing people in my life today. Of course I was with my Seany and my mom.

Now that 2011 is gone and 2012 is here I am going to make a change. A change for the better part of me. Instead of making "new years resolutions" I am going to make goals for myself. I will start out with one goal and until it is complete I will not move on to the next. I find myself every January overloading my self with all of these requests I have for myself, and by the end of the year, not one of them is completed. I overload myself with trying to change something super dramatic, like my weight. Of course I want to lose weight, but that's not a new years resolution, that's lifetime goal that I will strive to keep and try and keep and maintain healthyness.

No, this year I am going to try something different and not start with 20 things on my list to change. But start with one and until it's completed, not start another.

My first goal of 2012 is cut back on soda. I drink a soda everyday... Not good for my body. So as of tomorrow ( I already had one today haha) I will limit myself to one soda every other day and slowly cut back so I don't just go cold turkey and then have massive headaches.

Bring it on 2012, I am sure you have great things in store for me!

HAPPY MONDAY! <3