Frustration

Today has not been my day. Woke up (after cleaning last night in the kitchen) to the sink full of dishes...again. Are you kidding me? So I went on a 4o minute walk with my roommate Erin, which helped calm me down some. I feel like I do so much around here and I get zero credit for it. Whatever..just keep walking all over me.

Then two years ago, I thought a certain something of a certain someone, today that thought changed. I don't want to go into big detail about it; but pretty much I was kicked the curb and exchanged for an old friend instead. Nothing like that to lift your spirit right? Wrong.

Then, once again my apartment has turned into the party central! I am sick of not being able to sleep at night because there are people over here until 3 a.m. laughing and talking super loud. Hey guess what? You're not the only people who live here! Yup that's right, two more people live here and are trying to get some sleep. Do you think we get sleep? Absolutely not. If I'm not irritated about one thing, then it's something else.

HEY STOP SLAMMING THE DANG DOOR!!! IT'S NOT THAT HEAVY!!!

So frustrated right now.

At least a few good things are happening and have happened. I am through with school this semester finally. That has lifted a lot of stress off of my shoulders. Tomorrow Me, Patrick, Katelyn, and Quinton are going to have a fun time making pizza and playing games.

Last night I was very fortunate to hang out with an old time friend, who I haven't seen since August. We used to see each other almost everyday at school and then dance. Since I graduated we have seen each other maybe three times total. But last night we were able to hang out for about five hours. I love you Kaila.

Clean Freak

I would love to express my love for having a clean kitchen. Sounds crazy on how happy I am once the kitchen is in fact cleaned, but boy I sure do have a big smile once I see the kitchen tops glisten. I made cookies tonight and you know what? After I baked the cookies, I cleaned the kitchen. Yup, that's right. To some people this might sound like insanity, but to me it's fulfilling and makes my day better! One day, a man with appreciate this. ha.

First Part Of The Year

School is coming to end and I feel like a failure this semester. Last semester I had all A's and was so happy with college. Something odd happened this semester and I just got into a depression for awhile and just wouldn't go to class; shortly after my depression sort of faded off, I got this intense Kidney Infection. With this KI I have been in massive amounts of pain, headaches, fevers, etc. and going to class just seemed impossible, even hanging out with friends was hard to do.

Luckily I was able to get Medical Withdrawals for some of my classes and then just re-take them next semester. But I was thinking, "Oh, maybe my infection is finally gone. Most kidney infections don't last over a month to go away." I got to the doctor and she tells me that I still have my infection. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Why isn't this going away? My mom and I are just getting fed up with it no one taking it serious. If kidney infections go on for too long, then they can result in renal failure. I personally don't want renal failure at just 19 years old. My mother called up a specialist and FINALLY got me an appointment with someone who actually knows what they are doing. I will keep you posted on my progress once I meet with the specialist.

I am just wanting the summer to come because I have seen very few things good happen to me this semester. I feel like a failure with school, I am in pain from my kidney infection, and I look at all of my friends who are happily married and I'm not complaining, but I am lonely. Life can just be difficult when you are battling life's demons by yourself.

I just want happiness...

Welcome Spring

Today I spent the day with some family members. My Grandma, Kodei, Chyanne, Bailly, and I all went to the park so that the kids could get out of the house and have some fun. The weather was beautiful and it finally feels like spring has sprung.

One of my best friends that I haven't seen in such a long time was at the park with her son. It was wonderful to see her again. It has been about two or three years since I have seen her last and I sure have missed her.

Tonight I am going out to dinner with my grandma to La Casita, our families favorite resturaunt. After wards we are going to see a movie. I love having family around all the time. I feel at peace and content with my life.

Thank you Utah for this beautiful weather. It wasn't taken advantage of.