My beautiful babies on Halloween 2011

After getting tons of candy

Me and Chyanne are butterflies, Bailly is a Halo guy, and Hayden is Captain Hook

I get to see this beautiful girl tomorrow!!!

Our nicknames for each other are Tashy Tash and Li Li

Me and Shalisa met senior year of high school at MATC in the Medical Office Administration class.  We instantly bonded and became like sisters. Ever since we graduated it's been so hard to see each other with her working full time and me going to school and now working so much. But over the past three years we have seen each other and we take TONS of pictures when we are together.  Nothing better then documenting our life :)
I can't wait to see her tomorrow! I sure have missed my Li Li.

Have a great Sunday and a safe but Happy Halloween.

Boo 

Oh I wish

I wish I could pull off this hair. Hayden Panetierre looks fab with her super short hair cut. I've actually considered cutting my hair this short many times before. Oh I wish I looked this hot with this hair cut.

Halloween Party

Tonight me and my mom attended a Halloween party with our friends and had a blast. I'm so happy that these amazing people are in my life.

Me and Saylor

My mom and Shelli

My favorite kids

Karli and Kelton

Super cute kids

The whole group minus the kids

Brayden decided to wear my butterfly wings

Me and Autumn! Love her

Happy Saturday night!

Circle Scarf

I have many upon many scarves. I adore the circle scarves and thought, "Hey I'm gonna make one myself." So I just grabbed the ends of my scarf and sewed them together. here are some pictures.

Menchies

Yum! Me and Emma got Menchies last night.

Finally

Found time to see this beautiful girl who happens to be one of my best friends!


I love you Emilia Theresa

We pretty much matched this day! Us at our favorite place to get frozen yogurt, Menchies! Have a smiley day!!

Almost Friday! Woooohoooo

Almost there

So me and my friend Morisity are trying to move out... Lets just say it's been a process... and long and grueling process. BUT, after seeing a trashy place today we found one that is perfect. Perfect size, area, rent pay. Hopefully we will be able to get in this apartment. We just need to send in our applications and wait to hear back from them. :) It should be a very good and exciting journey in my life.

I adore this picture. It will be going up in my new room at my new apartment.

http://www.anthropologie.com/anthro/catalog/productdetail.jsp?id=21158167&catId=SHOES-BOOTS&pushId=SHOES-BOOTS&popId=SHOES&navCount=48&color=001&isProduct=true&fromCategoryPage=true&isSubcategory=true&subCategoryId=SHOES-BOOTS-TALL&templateType=subCategory

I want those boots!

It's a good day!

 

Who will complete my heart?

I wish I could just turn off my emotions and feelings because feeling this way isn't working out for me. I am literally beating myself up on the inside. I feel like I have so much love inside of me and no one to give it too. And by no one I mean no man in my life haha. I obviously send love to my friends and family. I just feel so lonely lately and that my life is going no where. All I want in life basically is a family and someone to love. That's pretty difficult to conquer. ugh


I hate Mondays FYI

Night at Nanas

Last Sunday, my dear sweet 98 year old Nana broke her ankle. Poor thing is having such a difficult time getting around she needs someone with her 24/7. I am fortunate enough to spend the night tonight with her and my little cousin Kodei offered to help as well. While Nana fell asleep me and Kodei wanted to keep ourselves busy before we went to bed. SOO we took some pictures and two very weird videos (that are posted on my facebook). It was a fun night, but now lets wait and see what tomorrow has in store for us.

Messing around on the webcam

In the dark living room while Nana was sleeping

It said comic so I did Volcan

Just me

Smiles, we may be different colors, but you can see the family resemblance

You almost can't see Kodei

I don't think I meant to take this picture haha

Still messing around

Okay, I meant to take this one but you can barely see Kodei

P90X

So me and my good friend Nichole started this week doing P90X everyday. The first few days I didn't feel anything afterwards, but today I'm so dang sore. Last night's work out kicked my butt! As much as we complain while we are working out, after I always feel so much better. Not to mention, everyday at work this week I've had an apple. I also have eaten so much healthier. So I feel better haha.

Me and Nichole after our first workout.

Also, if you didn't already know this, IT'S FRIDAY! Yay.
Happy Friday everyone. 

Hilary Duff

Does she not make the most beautiful pregnant woman? I just adore her.

Autumn

I can honestly say Autumn is my FAVORITE season. Of course my birthday is in the spring, and summer is always nice with warm weather and vacations. But the way life feels, the weather is beautiful, leaves changing, and of course the cute clothes you get to cozy up in.  It's so amazing how wonderful life is in the fall. I left out winter for a reason. The only good thing winter brings is Christmas... Then I would love for it to leave me the heck alone.
 Utah is most beautiful during the fall when all of the leaves are changing on the mountains and they are full of color.
I'm truly anxious for what this fall has in store for me. I took a break from school and looking for a full-time job so I can move out w/in the next month with my bestie Morisity. I'm so excited and can't wait to start looking for where we are going to live :)

Magical

So beautiful!

I sure do love Peacocks!
They are so beautiful and colorful, just like me! haha Even though the beautiful ones are males and the females are ugly... but lets just forget about that haha 

Peacock phone case 

Man in the Mirror- Or in this case, Woman in the Mirror

I need to make a change. How do I do that? I start with myself. The great and wonderful Michael Jackson once sang,

"I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
Take a look at yourself
And then make the change."

I need to take Mr. King of Pops lyrics and apply them to my life.  Growing up I had matured way early and looked much older than I really did. At age 10 years old I was asked by someone if I was 20. I'm 20 years old now. I got my period and boobs at age 8, not only that but it was only 2 months after turning 8. I've had a hard up bringing with my moms addiction but I'm very lucky to have such an amazing family and my mom back with her being clean almost 9 years. By the time I hit 13 I was very ashamed of myself and didn't approve of my body. By 14 I barely ate. I was in size 2 jeans. My skinniest I've ever been.

Me at age 15, recovering from my anorexia, but still skinny.

 I figured moving out of Spanish Fork and going to a different school in a different city would help. It did, we moved to Orem. I love it here so much and I feel at home. But ever since I was 15 I have gained more and more weight as I have gotten older. By the time I hit my senior year I was the heaviest I've ever been, weighing in at 195. I got a gym membership and lost 20 pounds over 6 months. I did good for a few years... and then this year, life happened. Stress, boys, school, friendships, self searching, and here I am... Even heavier than I was before... 205. I'm so ashamed of myself. I seriously cry about this every single day. And yet, I can't find the motivation to eat healthy and go to the gym. I don't understand what is wrong with me. It's like I've fallen into a depression, even though I feel happy. I really need to get in the groove and lose some weight so I can start feeling good about myself again, instead of hating myself.

Pink and Forgotten

So I got a coupon for any Pink purchase at Victoria Secret and I get a $5 t-shirt. I'm always up for a Pink shirt. They are my favorite.

Also, I feel forgotten! That's it. Quite disappointing.

BLAHHH

So last week the Niners LOST to the freaking Cowboys. So embarrassing. Right now they are playing the Bengals and winning! Soooo that's good.

I HAVE BEEN SICK FOR THE PAST WEEK! I'm so sick of being sick. Sometimes I feel like once you are sick, people forget about you. That sure is great feeling. You already feel like crap, and then you feel even worse once you are sick. Oh well. That's my life I guess.

This past week I have made some life changing decisions. After this current semester is finished, I will be getting a full time job and taking a break from school. I have literally not had a break since.... preschool. Kinda ridiculous. I'm actually really really anxious. I can't wait to be making some money and saving money. Sounds magnificent. :) So excited

Peace and Blessings

Utah State Fair & 49ers first game

My new boyfriend. He's pretty cute.

The kids :)

Me and Chyanne with an Owl

I took this picture in San Diego and just love it.

Can I tell you just LOVE the smoothie machine at UVU. Sure does make going to class easier :)

Trying out Vlogging... Football, Friends, and Dance

My 49ers Shirt

Smiles :)

Umm.... I promise we are normal

Kisses

And of course I had to take one of just me hahaha