While sitting at work I had a resident walk up to me and ask me if I ever write down my feelings and I replied with a no. I thought this was funny because I do have a blog and a journal (even though I've only written in it twice) and with these two things I don't ever really write down how I'm feeling. I'm a very emotional person, I cry at movies, songs, commercials, you name it. I love letting my feelings out but I usually only let myself see them. I hate having my family or friends see my emotional side, and vise versa in seeing their side. I'm going to try and write down my feelings on here almost everyday and see if that helps with me bottleting up my feelings.
Today I feel grateful for my amazing family. I couldn't ask for a more crazy and wonderful family. My Christmas was great. I was able to spend the whole day with my relatives and have laughs and just no arguments on Christmas.
I am very anxious for the next semester to start. I can't believe I passed math and won't be taking a math course next semester, thank goodness. But with this next school year I will be taking two science classes and I will admit I am a scared of what will happen with these classes.
I'm sad that one of my dearest friends who is a mother of a few month old darling baby girl is ending her relationship with her husband of a year. I hate seeing her in pain and because of her pain I therefore have pain. I love her to much to see her like this. I know she can make it on her own and will be an excellent mother to Avery.
I hate getting those butterflies in your stomach for someone you know you can't have and you can't get them to go away. Your heart races when they talk to you and you blush as they smile. A wise man once said, "That's why they call them crushes. If they were easy they would call them something else." The dad from "Sixteen Candles".
That's my first day of trying to jot down my feelings and thoughts, hopefully I stick with it.
I hope you had a Merry Christmas!